Since starting my practicum this semester I’ve learned some huge things about myself. I went in anticipating and even praying for God to change my heart as I walked into this “new” area of life. I knew that getting to sit in a room with someone and being present as they let me into their world was going to have to change me, but I guess I didn’t expect for some much of it to take place in so little time. Here are a few things the Lord is teaching me while in my counselor chair.
- People are Hurting. I think this is a truth that we say often, but it’s entirely different to SEE it and acknowledge that the people I encounter at the grocery store, coffee shop, gas station, etc…they have stories and they have a lot more going on than I’d like to think. It feels as though my senses have been cleared and I can breathe, smell, and taste better. As I listen more and as I seek to hear what isn’t being verbally expressed, I’m brought into the reality that there’s A LOT going on. In seeing all of this, I realize that I too live in a very comfortable bubble. One that I’m typically too afraid to burst in asking someone how they TRULY are.
- God is Loving and Ever so Present. I’m learning this for both my clients and for myself. There have been times when I’ve felt God lead me to remind my client of His faithfulness and at times speak direct words of love over them. I absolutely love to get to be a witness to this. In addition to these joyous moments, there are indeed really hard moments to sit in on as someone struggles to sort through their hurt and feel entirely abandoned, but let me tell you- GOD IS LOVING AND EVER SO PRESENT. I absolutely love seeing and expecting Him to move in these sessions!
Where shall I go from your Spirit? Or where shall I flee from your presence? If I ascend to heaven, you are there! If I make my bed in Sheol, you are there! If I take the wings of the morning and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea, even there your hand shall lead me, and your right hand shall hold me ~Psalm 139:7-10
- Ministry of Presence. God is so SO good! As I get to sit in the room and watch Him minister to His hurting children, I’m reminded of how loving He is. Though my days are often chaotic driving all across Fayetteville and sometimes Springdale, I have NO doubt that I am exactly where I’m supposed to be. The Lord is using this season to show me that THIS is what He is calling me to. To literally show up and be present. I’m reminded of His grace and often just how much I need Him.
He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak ~Isaiah 40:29
Today I took my chances in embracing the spring weather we’ve been having since December (with a few mild winter days). Brought out my favorite pair of booties (Shoe Carnival $20) Crop Top (JCP $7) Cargo Pants (GAP, but I got from a clothes swap)