It’s been a LONG minute. I couldn’t even begin to express all that has been happening in my life. although I can’t necessarily make up for lost time, everything that I’m learning this year (thus far) can be summarized in one word. SUBMIT.
That’s my word for the year. The Lord is teaching me about what it looks like to be submitted to Him. In christian circles this word is often thrown around in the concept of marriage, while in nonchristian circles, this word is simply offensive. I’m learning more than anything that this word (when fully grasped and allowed to take root and nourished) is life changing.
Submit-verb, to accept or yield to a superior force or to the authority or will of another person.
For me to submit myself to the Lord in this season feels like a much heavier commitment than it has ever been for me. It means choosing everyday to yield (and stop fighting) and go where He leads, to stop being a victim of life-in other words, freaking out when something I didn’t expect to happen, happens, to see the different courses that my life takes as something our sovereign God is in fact in control of and not as something that is happening by accident or happening to me. To Submit to the Lord means proclaiming His Lordship over my life and denying anything else to take that place in my life.
6 But he gives more grace. Therefore it says, “God opposes the proud, but gives grace to the humble.” 7 Submit yourselves therefore to God.Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. 8 Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. 9 Be wretched and mourn and weep. Let your laughter be turned to mourning and your joy to gloom. 10 Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will exalt you.
As you can imagine, the last month and half has been all about cleaning out the alter, one by one getting rid of my idols, and returning the title of Lordship to the ONLY person who should be Lord over my life.
It’s such a humbling place to be and on most days I can’t even stand myself. But hear this-His grace is sufficient and His love is being poured over me and carries so much more weight as I come face to face with my own sin. Guys, I know more than anything that God is REAL and that He loves me. To see the severity and the persistency of my sin and then see God’s love in spite of that is nothing short of an undeserving, incomprehensible, extravagant blessing.
Pray for me 🙂
Psalm 40:8 I delight to do Your will, O my God; Your Law is within my heart.”
Psalm 143:10 Teach me to do Your will, For You are my God; Let Your good Spirit lead me on level ground.
Let me tell you about the trouble I encountered to get this sweater!!! Hahaha. Saw it at Banana Republic while at home in N.C. and immediately fell in love…
But of course they only had one left in an XL…this thing is already so huge on its own that the XL swallowed me! BUT, my time at J.Crew finally paid off.
I was not ready to give up. After speaking with the Manager, she couldn’t locate one but printed out the receipt for me and assured me that another store might be able to find it within they’re network of stores…Listen, this took a good 30 min conversation on the phone for the person working at my local BR and not only did they find it at a fraction of the cost, she even gave me a discount on top of that!
Sweater-BR- $17 (originally $129) Skirt BR-Gift from my mom, Booties-J.Crew $27 Leggings- F21 $3 Ruffled Shirt-J.Crew (can’t remember)