Eat a Snickers

One thing have I asked of the Lord, that will I seek after:
that I may dwell in the house of the Lord
    all the days of my life,
to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord
    and to inquire[a] in his temple. 

Psalm 27:4 (ESV)

I’ve been stuck on this verse now for three days. The truth is, my heart is so wicked, dark, and ugly apart from God. Unfortunately the past few weeks have mostly been just that for me-the ugliness. I’ve had the hardest time getting my mind, heart, and soul on the same page and have felt like I was being pulled in so many directions. I’ve lacked the discipline to stay in the word, get in the presence of God, and delight in His goodness.

I’ve come in face to face with the person I would be without Christ, and let me be honest- I HATE her. I hate how she’s so prideful and carries herself like she’s the coolest thing on the planet. I hate how selfish she is and the thoughts she has about people that she loves and wants to love. I hate the things she says about herself and the amount of covetousness that lives within her heart. She’s entirely out of control and she’s in bondage to herself.

As silly as it sounds, the only way to really describe it is by using the example of a Snickers commercial-you know, the ones where people are crazy and not “themselves” and then someone says “eat a snickers, you’re not yourself when you’re hungry”? Yeah, those ones. But how true is that??? That when we’re hungry for the Word of God it’s evident in they way we think and act! I have starved myself from the word of God for so long that I saw me leading myself right into a life of pure existence; no joy, no purpose.

I NEEDED to see “her” to be reminded that I’m NOT her, because I am in Christ. I am a new creation-A masterpiece created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that I should walk in them (Eph. 2:10).

So, FINALLY I got something that’s better than a Snickers bar-I came across this verse and I can’t seem to move past it. I so desperately want the plea of this psalmist to be MY plea. I covet your prayers as I choose to stay stuck on this verse until my flesh succumbs to the longing of my soul to “dwell in the presence of God all the days of my life”. Pray for me as I fight to choose every second of my day to live with purpose and in peace that I have a savior Who loves me enough to reveal this to me. Most importantly, pray for a heart of repentance as I trust the Lord to continue to reveal to me the condition of my heart.

May I continue to see the beautiful thread of grace He weaves and sews through my life.

The one thing I ask of the Lord
    the thing I seek most—
is to live in the house of the Lord all the days of my life,
    delighting in the Lord’s perfections
    and meditating in his Temple. (NLT)

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Camo/military green is one of my favorite colors to wear this Fall! I love that it can be both neutral and bring out the color in most things.

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These lace up shoes are not the most comfortable, but they’re certainly great for complimenting this shade of green.

This kimono is also one of my favorite pieces for this season-it’s literally multi-purpose! Stay tuned for future posts as I play around with it!

Outfit Details: Bodycon Midi Dress ($8)-TJMAXX, Lace Kimono ($8)- Ross Shoes ($8)- Charlotte Russe, Necklace ($4)-Kohls

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